今天醒得不早也不迟
帮家人忙完家务后
陪着我的就只是一杯咖啡
喝着喝着
想着想着
想着未知数的未来
计划着一些该做的事
"千里之行，始于足下"
先踏出第一步吧
好比在原地踏步
不管是为了他人
还是为自己也好
从头再努力加油吧
与此同时
要记得珍惜身边人，生命还有时间
以免错过了再也无法挽回
"再次提醒自己"
不知不觉，
杯里的咖啡已经给喝完了
那表示是时候继续冲刺咯
不晓得现在的您又在做些什么呢？
2011/06/12
2011/05/17
remember what you wanna be...
今天真的不好意思，因为感觉上好像没教会你什么...
希望你可以从我给你的练习中学会还有领悟到基础。
还有刚才我不是很会说话...
所以没能给你接下来好好的建议...
其实我想说...
偶尔我们都有犹豫不决的时候，
就连我也有迷茫，失去方向的时候...
但是试下在这没有方向下，
尝试去做自己喜欢的东西，
或是体验一些之前没做过的事，
可能从中领悟到什么，
看见不同的东西，
甚至找回自己的方向...
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“在一些临作决定前的时候，
先了解自己想要的是什么，
然后再找出选择，
在不同的选择，先考虑那个选择是否值得吗？
是值得的，就给机会自己尝试一下吧。”
这就是我的习惯...
其实我说了这么多，
并不是想影响你，
而是想让你知道你比一些人好...
想让你更了解自己
还有当你不安的时候，
试找朋友商量与分享下...
你的朋友不会比我少的...
And always remember the very first reason why you want to be a designer...
I don't know you but for me...
"I just want to design so please don't stop me from doing what I like..."
希望你可以从我给你的练习中学会还有领悟到基础。
还有刚才我不是很会说话...
所以没能给你接下来好好的建议...
其实我想说...
偶尔我们都有犹豫不决的时候，
就连我也有迷茫，失去方向的时候...
但是试下在这没有方向下，
尝试去做自己喜欢的东西，
或是体验一些之前没做过的事，
可能从中领悟到什么，
看见不同的东西，
甚至找回自己的方向...
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记得中四、中五...
当时的我修的是理科...
本来对科学和数学有兴趣的我...
但因为物理还有addmath连续不及格的关系，（不瞒你说我考过0蛋叻）
我就开始犹豫起来，
心想“这些科目将来毕业后对我有什么帮助呢？
而且还考不好，那专业职业就别提了...”
那时候才发现我没有理想，知道自己不是读书的料...
就向老师提出停学，因为不想浪费时间... 想到外面闯一闯...（是不是很傻呢？）
当时的我根本无心向学，在学业上根本不及于其他同学...
就开始疏远了自己... （难听的就是自暴自弃）
在老师的劝导下，最后我还是中学毕业了...
其他朋友拿了SPM成绩后就选好了他们的接下来要修的科目，往自己的理想前进...
没有理想的我，也不想读书的我就没直接去什么学院还是中六了...
而是继续当时的想法，就是到外面闯一闯...
所以我就到外面打工了一年... (7-Eleven，maxis promoter)
虽然当中有不愉快的经历，
但最后我从中找到了自己的兴趣——设计
以前的老板曾告诉我：有时候我缺乏勇气还有信心...
那是因为当时我还没找到我的“武器”
但现在我的”武器“就是设计...
现在的我可以回答说：“交给我去办吧！因为在这方面我不会比其他人差！”
其实一开始的时候，
我也很担心自己没这方面的才能...
毕竟我是理科班，画画水彩方面更别提了...
也没像一些朋友在中五就已经接触photoshop了...
不过难得我找到了兴趣，
所以应该不易放弃，应该努力下去...
就这样认识了D5...
在这里我比中学的时候还要开心...
因为我有一班拥有相同的理想与兴趣的朋友...
所以我比以前的更珍惜现在的朋友...
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“在一些临作决定前的时候，
先了解自己想要的是什么，
然后再找出选择，
在不同的选择，先考虑那个选择是否值得吗？
是值得的，就给机会自己尝试一下吧。”
这就是我的习惯...
其实我说了这么多，
并不是想影响你，
而是想让你知道你比一些人好...
想让你更了解自己
还有当你不安的时候，
试找朋友商量与分享下...
你的朋友不会比我少的...
And always remember the very first reason why you want to be a designer...
I don't know you but for me...
"I just want to design so please don't stop me from doing what I like..."
2011/04/20
不干了...
终于的终于... 我向上司提出我想要辞职的话，也就是说我与公司的合约将在下个月的20日中止了。主要原因是...我不满现在的我吧。不过还是感激大家在公司里教导我的一切，真的很谢谢这份工。
因为这份工，让我再次认识了自己...
因为这份工，让我了解designer的生涯...
因为这份工，让我知道现今的社会...
因为这份工，让我结识到不同的人...
因为这份工，让我明白什么是责任感...
在那一刻，我发现自己是如此的软弱。要不是上司主动跟我问话，我想我没有提出辞职的勇气，所以真的很谢谢她让我有机会坦言，让我面对现在的我，以及做出如此的决定！
这也是我毕业后第一份当designer的工作，起初我都是抱着热心学习的态度来学习一切，但后来这热心好像慢慢地被浇熄了。如大家所说的一样，designer并不是完全能够自由发挥，而是尽你所能去满足顾客的要求...也因为这样，有时候同样的artwork要改上好几轮才能满足他人的要求... 我想这种心情也应该只有designer才能够明白吧...
“在工作方面上，请问你有负起你应担的责任吗？你不能因为自己的情绪与不爽，而发泄在工作上。相反的，你应该为公司利益着想，去满足顾客提出来的要求，这就是公司花钱聘请你的主要目的。”坦白说类似这样的话我已经不是第一次听了... 也许我一开始的出发点并不是为了公司吧，所以在责任方面我还得向大家学习... 请多多指教!!
还有从这份工，我领悟了“多数人不会因为你的99%的完好而称赞你，而会因为你的1%的失误来指责你”！这道理我真的深深地体会到了... 因为我偶尔还是会犯错...
虽然已经提出了辞职，但还有一个月的时间，所以在这段时间我还是会负起designer的责任。在那之后又有什么打算呢？我想我会让自己“冷静下，看看四周再做长途打算吧...当然最重要还是要让自己开心些，先做自己想做的事吧...” =)
因为这份工，让我再次认识了自己...
因为这份工，让我了解designer的生涯...
因为这份工，让我知道现今的社会...
因为这份工，让我结识到不同的人...
因为这份工，让我明白什么是责任感...
在那一刻，我发现自己是如此的软弱。要不是上司主动跟我问话，我想我没有提出辞职的勇气，所以真的很谢谢她让我有机会坦言，让我面对现在的我，以及做出如此的决定！
这也是我毕业后第一份当designer的工作，起初我都是抱着热心学习的态度来学习一切，但后来这热心好像慢慢地被浇熄了。如大家所说的一样，designer并不是完全能够自由发挥，而是尽你所能去满足顾客的要求...也因为这样，有时候同样的artwork要改上好几轮才能满足他人的要求... 我想这种心情也应该只有designer才能够明白吧...
“在工作方面上，请问你有负起你应担的责任吗？你不能因为自己的情绪与不爽，而发泄在工作上。相反的，你应该为公司利益着想，去满足顾客提出来的要求，这就是公司花钱聘请你的主要目的。”坦白说类似这样的话我已经不是第一次听了... 也许我一开始的出发点并不是为了公司吧，所以在责任方面我还得向大家学习... 请多多指教!!
还有从这份工，我领悟了“多数人不会因为你的99%的完好而称赞你，而会因为你的1%的失误来指责你”！这道理我真的深深地体会到了... 因为我偶尔还是会犯错...
虽然已经提出了辞职，但还有一个月的时间，所以在这段时间我还是会负起designer的责任。在那之后又有什么打算呢？我想我会让自己“冷静下，看看四周再做长途打算吧...当然最重要还是要让自己开心些，先做自己想做的事吧...” =)
2010/07/09
Should I? Can I?
The reason I choose to rent a room and stay outside is because I no need spend times to travel from home to college everyday, I rather use the times for other purposes like sleeping or assignment. Yet, I can hang out with friends sometimes... But very very unlucky and unfortunately, a robber broke into the house that I'm staying now, TBR this Tuesday and stole my laptop away together with my friend's, total 3 laptops. This is my first time and first experience to encounter this kind of situation after so long I rented a room. And I not even have the chance to say "Goodbye" to my laptop that accompany me less than 2 years.
The first thing in my mind once after laptop was stolen is how I suppose to pass up my assignment this Thursday?! Second, all my designs and assignments from very first semester until now are totally gone. So, how I show my portfolio without any design once I'm going to work? Third, my favorite songs, those photos that have different of memories, every single words that you speak to me, any record between you and me... all disappeared and gone...
No more laptop, nothing that I can do now. The first day is really tiring for me since I woke up early for class that day and go for report to the police until evening. Every night, I found it's really very boring for me doing nothing there. I can't touch up my design that need to submit soon, I can't online to facebook-ing and read your profile or blog again, I can't reach to you even that's just an unreal world.
The next day I woke up, I have no mood and very sleepy. And I don't know how to face my assignment deadline and my lecturer. Suddenly, I was thinking to STOP my study or just WITHDRAW now. I think of this because I don't want to burden my parents to give me money to buy a new laptop now. I rather go out to work again and buy it myself again. Besides, I was thinking of going out for work as a junior designer that can "rebuild" my portfolio again where I can't gain back the quantity that I want from just studying Advance because there are many theories to study instead of design work.
However, there are also some reasons stop me from taking any further action to withdraw from study. First, there is group assignments that I can't just leave up and walked away like that. Next, maybe it's very hard for me to gain a work since I can't show any portfolio during interview. And lastly, is this I REALLY wanted? This is really heavy and hard decision to make because it will changes your life entirely. So, I will hold it until the end of the semester. At least let me finish the group assignment with others and finish the exam...
I can't sleep very well this few days because thinking all of this. Is me thinking too much and too worried about the future? Maybe I should stop thinking of withdraw and keep on studying hard for Advance, then only think about the future? Can I? Should I?
Haiz... I think I need someone's guide again... someone's advice...
The first thing in my mind once after laptop was stolen is how I suppose to pass up my assignment this Thursday?! Second, all my designs and assignments from very first semester until now are totally gone. So, how I show my portfolio without any design once I'm going to work? Third, my favorite songs, those photos that have different of memories, every single words that you speak to me, any record between you and me... all disappeared and gone...
No more laptop, nothing that I can do now. The first day is really tiring for me since I woke up early for class that day and go for report to the police until evening. Every night, I found it's really very boring for me doing nothing there. I can't touch up my design that need to submit soon, I can't online to facebook-ing and read your profile or blog again, I can't reach to you even that's just an unreal world.
The next day I woke up, I have no mood and very sleepy. And I don't know how to face my assignment deadline and my lecturer. Suddenly, I was thinking to STOP my study or just WITHDRAW now. I think of this because I don't want to burden my parents to give me money to buy a new laptop now. I rather go out to work again and buy it myself again. Besides, I was thinking of going out for work as a junior designer that can "rebuild" my portfolio again where I can't gain back the quantity that I want from just studying Advance because there are many theories to study instead of design work.
However, there are also some reasons stop me from taking any further action to withdraw from study. First, there is group assignments that I can't just leave up and walked away like that. Next, maybe it's very hard for me to gain a work since I can't show any portfolio during interview. And lastly, is this I REALLY wanted? This is really heavy and hard decision to make because it will changes your life entirely. So, I will hold it until the end of the semester. At least let me finish the group assignment with others and finish the exam...
I can't sleep very well this few days because thinking all of this. Is me thinking too much and too worried about the future? Maybe I should stop thinking of withdraw and keep on studying hard for Advance, then only think about the future? Can I? Should I?
Haiz... I think I need someone's guide again... someone's advice...
2010/05/28
Second week of AGD1
Monday translation class is always fun like Miss Tan asked us to find out the slogan or anything wrote in English and BM version last week and share your opinion about the translation is whether good or bad during the class. And there is 1 really funny when D4's Eng Soon wrote the Nike's slogan, "Just Do It" with the translation in BM, "Buat Sahajalah". Teacher asked where he get the translation, he answered he got it from his friend own translation. Then, the whole class laughed include Miss Tan. Hahaha... well, the fact is the Nike slogan still remain as "Just Do It" in all the language versions and this is where we should pay attention to and don't simply translate it directly because you might end up lose your job in future. So, translation for me has become a quite challenging subject yet it's quite fun too. And 1 more thing that amaze me is Miss Tan's memory. She's always well prepared when comes to class and I think she had memorized all the big company's slogans in English and BM version. Woah~ what a good memory with her age now... hahaha... ^^
Tuesday was the fisrt lecture of Communication Research Method. And the class really makes me want to get crazy all suddenly because it's a theory class. I really hate theory especially a format of anything that need us to follow it exactly. Hate it... When the lecturer was keep on saying and explaining the format, my mind suddenly was "over-thinking". What I mean by "over-thinking" here is my mind comes out with some kind of resistance that keep blocking everything the lecturer said and keep on asking why I should learn this subject. As what Edwin said previously, this subject is learned to guide us for thesis writing in UK. But let's think further and farer, is it benefit us when we come out to work as graphic designer? Unfortunately the answer would be no. If a company is looking for someone to serve them an annual report or speech for presentation, definitely they will look for public relation or journalism graduate. Impossible for them to hire a graphic designer to write them a news, right? So, I totally pay no attention to the lecture.
Oh yah... after Edwin's tutorial that day, Yan Wei and Joanne went to ask Edwin for something. And this is what I heard from them, our diploma certificate is stated as "Diploma In Mass Communication" but after 2 years it will be changed to "Diploma in Graphic Design" which means the syllabus will be more focus specifically on graphic design instead of mass communication. Woah~ should I happy or sad? Happy is TARC finally has Diploma in Graphic Design instead of mass communication that we can no need to learn non-graphic design subjects. Sad is there will only happen after 2 years PERHAPS... Haiz... too bad I had already graduated that time...
Comes to Thursday, there is also another theory lecture which is Communication Theories on 8am somemore. But LUCKILY the lecturer makes the whole lecture a bit interesting and funny, or else I think I won't pay attention to it neither. After the lecture will be Edwin's practical class, and we are given assignment finally. We are requested to use the pictogram to form a story. In the same time, he also suggest us a few ways to improve our portfolio and to make whole the assignment look tidy and great. I really appreciate his suggestions and what I need to do now is be more hardworking and more passionate to all the works.
Well, that's all I want to share about this week. And after I been through this 2 weeks, I realize that the relationship between each other is still remain as their own group during Diploma. D1 stick with D1, D2 with D2...... is there a way that make us stick closely to each other? Erm... that day also heard Edwin said maybe want to seperate into 2 class since unexpected that many students. What to say??
Tuesday was the fisrt lecture of Communication Research Method. And the class really makes me want to get crazy all suddenly because it's a theory class. I really hate theory especially a format of anything that need us to follow it exactly. Hate it... When the lecturer was keep on saying and explaining the format, my mind suddenly was "over-thinking". What I mean by "over-thinking" here is my mind comes out with some kind of resistance that keep blocking everything the lecturer said and keep on asking why I should learn this subject. As what Edwin said previously, this subject is learned to guide us for thesis writing in UK. But let's think further and farer, is it benefit us when we come out to work as graphic designer? Unfortunately the answer would be no. If a company is looking for someone to serve them an annual report or speech for presentation, definitely they will look for public relation or journalism graduate. Impossible for them to hire a graphic designer to write them a news, right? So, I totally pay no attention to the lecture.
Oh yah... after Edwin's tutorial that day, Yan Wei and Joanne went to ask Edwin for something. And this is what I heard from them, our diploma certificate is stated as "Diploma In Mass Communication" but after 2 years it will be changed to "Diploma in Graphic Design" which means the syllabus will be more focus specifically on graphic design instead of mass communication. Woah~ should I happy or sad? Happy is TARC finally has Diploma in Graphic Design instead of mass communication that we can no need to learn non-graphic design subjects. Sad is there will only happen after 2 years PERHAPS... Haiz... too bad I had already graduated that time...
Comes to Thursday, there is also another theory lecture which is Communication Theories on 8am somemore. But LUCKILY the lecturer makes the whole lecture a bit interesting and funny, or else I think I won't pay attention to it neither. After the lecture will be Edwin's practical class, and we are given assignment finally. We are requested to use the pictogram to form a story. In the same time, he also suggest us a few ways to improve our portfolio and to make whole the assignment look tidy and great. I really appreciate his suggestions and what I need to do now is be more hardworking and more passionate to all the works.
Well, that's all I want to share about this week. And after I been through this 2 weeks, I realize that the relationship between each other is still remain as their own group during Diploma. D1 stick with D1, D2 with D2...... is there a way that make us stick closely to each other? Erm... that day also heard Edwin said maybe want to seperate into 2 class since unexpected that many students. What to say??
2010/05/21
The First Week of AGD1
The new semester of Advance Diploma in Graphic Design(AGD1) had started on this Monday. It will be another new begining for those who further their study at TARC again. Well, I guess that's only 5 persons from our class are going to study this time. Anyway, do your best and good luck to you all who is going to study at other college soon and also to those went for work. I will always miss you guys!!
After this few day classes, I just found out that there are 3 theory classes out of 4 subjects. Haiz... theory again and there are 3 somemore! What a most pity thing for SSSH students to study theory and especially we're the GRAPHIC DESIGNERS. Well, we don't have a choice but just accept whatever it offers because we are TARCIAN, learn many compare with other professional college in Mass Comm field.
Erm... after see the time table, I think the Communication Theories and Communication Research Methods are not an easy subject. As what you can see from the title subject, we need learn those theories and research method about an issue. We may requested to write a long report or you can call it in professional way, the thesis. And from what we heard from Edwin said, this subject is offered to us is to teach us the thesis base so we can prepare the thesis well when further study oversea. Erm... so, we can't change the fact and just hoping the lecturer and tutor are good in teaching...
For Edwin's class, Infographic, where the designer need to design the icon, symbol or a plate to give the info to public. So, this subject is the only design subject for this semester and it will be interesting too. And before the class really started, he just asked us "Why you want to take Advance?" with his funny smiling face. Haha... for me, I'm taking Advance is to further my knowledge not only the design skills but also to find out the way of generate the idea from study.I also looking toward for learning some new design softwares like Flash and Dreamweaver that contribute to web page design which is quite basic requirement for a graphic designer. And of course another common reason of continue Advance at TARC is C-H-E-A-P CHEAP~ or you can say it in a better way, affordable. Hahaha...
Another subject for the sem will be Translation and Graphic Design. Erm... this subject is totally do with language and is all about translation. And the lecturer remind me of something, "Money is not everything but everything is about money" and "You can't change the pass and control the future but what can do is now" Erm... what she said is really true and always stick to it. Anyway, I just want to tell you that this subject is not that easy but it makes a lot of funny stuff when comes to literal translate. So, it will be fun even though it will be a little tricky. Haha... I quite like it and hope the coming assignment is just fine.
Erm... this is all I want to post about this week. Now I feel a little tired and sleepy because of looking for room to rent and it has been settled. Now just wait for assignment and start again... my college life...
After this few day classes, I just found out that there are 3 theory classes out of 4 subjects. Haiz... theory again and there are 3 somemore! What a most pity thing for SSSH students to study theory and especially we're the GRAPHIC DESIGNERS. Well, we don't have a choice but just accept whatever it offers because we are TARCIAN, learn many compare with other professional college in Mass Comm field.
Erm... after see the time table, I think the Communication Theories and Communication Research Methods are not an easy subject. As what you can see from the title subject, we need learn those theories and research method about an issue. We may requested to write a long report or you can call it in professional way, the thesis. And from what we heard from Edwin said, this subject is offered to us is to teach us the thesis base so we can prepare the thesis well when further study oversea. Erm... so, we can't change the fact and just hoping the lecturer and tutor are good in teaching...
For Edwin's class, Infographic, where the designer need to design the icon, symbol or a plate to give the info to public. So, this subject is the only design subject for this semester and it will be interesting too. And before the class really started, he just asked us "Why you want to take Advance?" with his funny smiling face. Haha... for me, I'm taking Advance is to further my knowledge not only the design skills but also to find out the way of generate the idea from study.I also looking toward for learning some new design softwares like Flash and Dreamweaver that contribute to web page design which is quite basic requirement for a graphic designer. And of course another common reason of continue Advance at TARC is C-H-E-A-P CHEAP~ or you can say it in a better way, affordable. Hahaha...
Another subject for the sem will be Translation and Graphic Design. Erm... this subject is totally do with language and is all about translation. And the lecturer remind me of something, "Money is not everything but everything is about money" and "You can't change the pass and control the future but what can do is now" Erm... what she said is really true and always stick to it. Anyway, I just want to tell you that this subject is not that easy but it makes a lot of funny stuff when comes to literal translate. So, it will be fun even though it will be a little tricky. Haha... I quite like it and hope the coming assignment is just fine.
Erm... this is all I want to post about this week. Now I feel a little tired and sleepy because of looking for room to rent and it has been settled. Now just wait for assignment and start again... my college life...
2010/05/13
你有几次是真诚地对待自己呢？
“我不是一个很理性的人
缺点又超多的
只是我有一个超欣赏自己的地方
那就是我很真诚的对待自己
我想哭 我想笑 想逃 想跑
我都会表现出来
我觉得你把真正的自己给关住了
你做每一件事都很棒
但我却感受不到
你喜欢一件事情的热情
也许
你还不够了解真正的自己吧”
来自《黑塘玛奇朵》的一句对白...
听过这句对白后
我就问过自己
“你有几次是真诚地对待自己呢？”
缺点又超多的
只是我有一个超欣赏自己的地方
那就是我很真诚的对待自己
我想哭 我想笑 想逃 想跑
我都会表现出来
我觉得你把真正的自己给关住了
你做每一件事都很棒
但我却感受不到
你喜欢一件事情的热情
也许
你还不够了解真正的自己吧”
来自《黑塘玛奇朵》的一句对白...
听过这句对白后
我就问过自己
“你有几次是真诚地对待自己呢？”
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