The reason I choose to rent a room and stay outside is because I no need spend times to travel from home to college everyday, I rather use the times for other purposes like sleeping or assignment. Yet, I can hang out with friends sometimes... But very very unlucky and unfortunately, a robber broke into the house that I'm staying now, TBR this Tuesday and stole my laptop away together with my friend's, total 3 laptops. This is my first time and first experience to encounter this kind of situation after so long I rented a room. And I not even have the chance to say "Goodbye" to my laptop that accompany me less than 2 years.
The first thing in my mind once after laptop was stolen is how I suppose to pass up my assignment this Thursday?! Second, all my designs and assignments from very first semester until now are totally gone. So, how I show my portfolio without any design once I'm going to work? Third, my favorite songs, those photos that have different of memories, every single words that you speak to me, any record between you and me... all disappeared and gone...
No more laptop, nothing that I can do now. The first day is really tiring for me since I woke up early for class that day and go for report to the police until evening. Every night, I found it's really very boring for me doing nothing there. I can't touch up my design that need to submit soon, I can't online to facebook-ing and read your profile or blog again, I can't reach to you even that's just an unreal world.
The next day I woke up, I have no mood and very sleepy. And I don't know how to face my assignment deadline and my lecturer. Suddenly, I was thinking to STOP my study or just WITHDRAW now. I think of this because I don't want to burden my parents to give me money to buy a new laptop now. I rather go out to work again and buy it myself again. Besides, I was thinking of going out for work as a junior designer that can "rebuild" my portfolio again where I can't gain back the quantity that I want from just studying Advance because there are many theories to study instead of design work.
However, there are also some reasons stop me from taking any further action to withdraw from study. First, there is group assignments that I can't just leave up and walked away like that. Next, maybe it's very hard for me to gain a work since I can't show any portfolio during interview. And lastly, is this I REALLY wanted? This is really heavy and hard decision to make because it will changes your life entirely. So, I will hold it until the end of the semester. At least let me finish the group assignment with others and finish the exam...
I can't sleep very well this few days because thinking all of this. Is me thinking too much and too worried about the future? Maybe I should stop thinking of withdraw and keep on studying hard for Advance, then only think about the future? Can I? Should I?
Haiz... I think I need someone's guide again... someone's advice...
2010/07/09
2010/05/28
Second week of AGD1
Monday translation class is always fun like Miss Tan asked us to find out the slogan or anything wrote in English and BM version last week and share your opinion about the translation is whether good or bad during the class. And there is 1 really funny when D4's Eng Soon wrote the Nike's slogan, "Just Do It" with the translation in BM, "Buat Sahajalah". Teacher asked where he get the translation, he answered he got it from his friend own translation. Then, the whole class laughed include Miss Tan. Hahaha... well, the fact is the Nike slogan still remain as "Just Do It" in all the language versions and this is where we should pay attention to and don't simply translate it directly because you might end up lose your job in future. So, translation for me has become a quite challenging subject yet it's quite fun too. And 1 more thing that amaze me is Miss Tan's memory. She's always well prepared when comes to class and I think she had memorized all the big company's slogans in English and BM version. Woah~ what a good memory with her age now... hahaha... ^^
Tuesday was the fisrt lecture of Communication Research Method. And the class really makes me want to get crazy all suddenly because it's a theory class. I really hate theory especially a format of anything that need us to follow it exactly. Hate it... When the lecturer was keep on saying and explaining the format, my mind suddenly was "over-thinking". What I mean by "over-thinking" here is my mind comes out with some kind of resistance that keep blocking everything the lecturer said and keep on asking why I should learn this subject. As what Edwin said previously, this subject is learned to guide us for thesis writing in UK. But let's think further and farer, is it benefit us when we come out to work as graphic designer? Unfortunately the answer would be no. If a company is looking for someone to serve them an annual report or speech for presentation, definitely they will look for public relation or journalism graduate. Impossible for them to hire a graphic designer to write them a news, right? So, I totally pay no attention to the lecture.
Oh yah... after Edwin's tutorial that day, Yan Wei and Joanne went to ask Edwin for something. And this is what I heard from them, our diploma certificate is stated as "Diploma In Mass Communication" but after 2 years it will be changed to "Diploma in Graphic Design" which means the syllabus will be more focus specifically on graphic design instead of mass communication. Woah~ should I happy or sad? Happy is TARC finally has Diploma in Graphic Design instead of mass communication that we can no need to learn non-graphic design subjects. Sad is there will only happen after 2 years PERHAPS... Haiz... too bad I had already graduated that time...
Comes to Thursday, there is also another theory lecture which is Communication Theories on 8am somemore. But LUCKILY the lecturer makes the whole lecture a bit interesting and funny, or else I think I won't pay attention to it neither. After the lecture will be Edwin's practical class, and we are given assignment finally. We are requested to use the pictogram to form a story. In the same time, he also suggest us a few ways to improve our portfolio and to make whole the assignment look tidy and great. I really appreciate his suggestions and what I need to do now is be more hardworking and more passionate to all the works.
Well, that's all I want to share about this week. And after I been through this 2 weeks, I realize that the relationship between each other is still remain as their own group during Diploma. D1 stick with D1, D2 with D2...... is there a way that make us stick closely to each other? Erm... that day also heard Edwin said maybe want to seperate into 2 class since unexpected that many students. What to say??
Tuesday was the fisrt lecture of Communication Research Method. And the class really makes me want to get crazy all suddenly because it's a theory class. I really hate theory especially a format of anything that need us to follow it exactly. Hate it... When the lecturer was keep on saying and explaining the format, my mind suddenly was "over-thinking". What I mean by "over-thinking" here is my mind comes out with some kind of resistance that keep blocking everything the lecturer said and keep on asking why I should learn this subject. As what Edwin said previously, this subject is learned to guide us for thesis writing in UK. But let's think further and farer, is it benefit us when we come out to work as graphic designer? Unfortunately the answer would be no. If a company is looking for someone to serve them an annual report or speech for presentation, definitely they will look for public relation or journalism graduate. Impossible for them to hire a graphic designer to write them a news, right? So, I totally pay no attention to the lecture.
Oh yah... after Edwin's tutorial that day, Yan Wei and Joanne went to ask Edwin for something. And this is what I heard from them, our diploma certificate is stated as "Diploma In Mass Communication" but after 2 years it will be changed to "Diploma in Graphic Design" which means the syllabus will be more focus specifically on graphic design instead of mass communication. Woah~ should I happy or sad? Happy is TARC finally has Diploma in Graphic Design instead of mass communication that we can no need to learn non-graphic design subjects. Sad is there will only happen after 2 years PERHAPS... Haiz... too bad I had already graduated that time...
Comes to Thursday, there is also another theory lecture which is Communication Theories on 8am somemore. But LUCKILY the lecturer makes the whole lecture a bit interesting and funny, or else I think I won't pay attention to it neither. After the lecture will be Edwin's practical class, and we are given assignment finally. We are requested to use the pictogram to form a story. In the same time, he also suggest us a few ways to improve our portfolio and to make whole the assignment look tidy and great. I really appreciate his suggestions and what I need to do now is be more hardworking and more passionate to all the works.
Well, that's all I want to share about this week. And after I been through this 2 weeks, I realize that the relationship between each other is still remain as their own group during Diploma. D1 stick with D1, D2 with D2...... is there a way that make us stick closely to each other? Erm... that day also heard Edwin said maybe want to seperate into 2 class since unexpected that many students. What to say??
2010/05/21
The First Week of AGD1
The new semester of Advance Diploma in Graphic Design(AGD1) had started on this Monday. It will be another new begining for those who further their study at TARC again. Well, I guess that's only 5 persons from our class are going to study this time. Anyway, do your best and good luck to you all who is going to study at other college soon and also to those went for work. I will always miss you guys!!
After this few day classes, I just found out that there are 3 theory classes out of 4 subjects. Haiz... theory again and there are 3 somemore! What a most pity thing for SSSH students to study theory and especially we're the GRAPHIC DESIGNERS. Well, we don't have a choice but just accept whatever it offers because we are TARCIAN, learn many compare with other professional college in Mass Comm field.
Erm... after see the time table, I think the Communication Theories and Communication Research Methods are not an easy subject. As what you can see from the title subject, we need learn those theories and research method about an issue. We may requested to write a long report or you can call it in professional way, the thesis. And from what we heard from Edwin said, this subject is offered to us is to teach us the thesis base so we can prepare the thesis well when further study oversea. Erm... so, we can't change the fact and just hoping the lecturer and tutor are good in teaching...
For Edwin's class, Infographic, where the designer need to design the icon, symbol or a plate to give the info to public. So, this subject is the only design subject for this semester and it will be interesting too. And before the class really started, he just asked us "Why you want to take Advance?" with his funny smiling face. Haha... for me, I'm taking Advance is to further my knowledge not only the design skills but also to find out the way of generate the idea from study.I also looking toward for learning some new design softwares like Flash and Dreamweaver that contribute to web page design which is quite basic requirement for a graphic designer. And of course another common reason of continue Advance at TARC is C-H-E-A-P CHEAP~ or you can say it in a better way, affordable. Hahaha...
Another subject for the sem will be Translation and Graphic Design. Erm... this subject is totally do with language and is all about translation. And the lecturer remind me of something, "Money is not everything but everything is about money" and "You can't change the pass and control the future but what can do is now" Erm... what she said is really true and always stick to it. Anyway, I just want to tell you that this subject is not that easy but it makes a lot of funny stuff when comes to literal translate. So, it will be fun even though it will be a little tricky. Haha... I quite like it and hope the coming assignment is just fine.
Erm... this is all I want to post about this week. Now I feel a little tired and sleepy because of looking for room to rent and it has been settled. Now just wait for assignment and start again... my college life...
After this few day classes, I just found out that there are 3 theory classes out of 4 subjects. Haiz... theory again and there are 3 somemore! What a most pity thing for SSSH students to study theory and especially we're the GRAPHIC DESIGNERS. Well, we don't have a choice but just accept whatever it offers because we are TARCIAN, learn many compare with other professional college in Mass Comm field.
Erm... after see the time table, I think the Communication Theories and Communication Research Methods are not an easy subject. As what you can see from the title subject, we need learn those theories and research method about an issue. We may requested to write a long report or you can call it in professional way, the thesis. And from what we heard from Edwin said, this subject is offered to us is to teach us the thesis base so we can prepare the thesis well when further study oversea. Erm... so, we can't change the fact and just hoping the lecturer and tutor are good in teaching...
For Edwin's class, Infographic, where the designer need to design the icon, symbol or a plate to give the info to public. So, this subject is the only design subject for this semester and it will be interesting too. And before the class really started, he just asked us "Why you want to take Advance?" with his funny smiling face. Haha... for me, I'm taking Advance is to further my knowledge not only the design skills but also to find out the way of generate the idea from study.I also looking toward for learning some new design softwares like Flash and Dreamweaver that contribute to web page design which is quite basic requirement for a graphic designer. And of course another common reason of continue Advance at TARC is C-H-E-A-P CHEAP~ or you can say it in a better way, affordable. Hahaha...
Another subject for the sem will be Translation and Graphic Design. Erm... this subject is totally do with language and is all about translation. And the lecturer remind me of something, "Money is not everything but everything is about money" and "You can't change the pass and control the future but what can do is now" Erm... what she said is really true and always stick to it. Anyway, I just want to tell you that this subject is not that easy but it makes a lot of funny stuff when comes to literal translate. So, it will be fun even though it will be a little tricky. Haha... I quite like it and hope the coming assignment is just fine.
Erm... this is all I want to post about this week. Now I feel a little tired and sleepy because of looking for room to rent and it has been settled. Now just wait for assignment and start again... my college life...
2010/05/13
你有几次是真诚地对待自己呢？
“我不是一个很理性的人
缺点又超多的
只是我有一个超欣赏自己的地方
那就是我很真诚的对待自己
我想哭 我想笑 想逃 想跑
我都会表现出来
我觉得你把真正的自己给关住了
你做每一件事都很棒
但我却感受不到
你喜欢一件事情的热情
也许
你还不够了解真正的自己吧”
来自《黑塘玛奇朵》的一句对白...
听过这句对白后
我就问过自己
“你有几次是真诚地对待自己呢？”
缺点又超多的
只是我有一个超欣赏自己的地方
那就是我很真诚的对待自己
我想哭 我想笑 想逃 想跑
我都会表现出来
我觉得你把真正的自己给关住了
你做每一件事都很棒
但我却感受不到
你喜欢一件事情的热情
也许
你还不够了解真正的自己吧”
来自《黑塘玛奇朵》的一句对白...
听过这句对白后
我就问过自己
“你有几次是真诚地对待自己呢？”
2010/05/06
2010/02/12
Happy Holiday
Just a few months left before we graduate. Had you guys have any plan after graduate? Well, I think some of them had done a really good planning for their future, right? Hehe... and for those who haven't think of it yet, don't panic and lost your direction. Just focus on what you can do or change right now before you go on for your future. If you would like to change, please take some minutes to think of 1 question or try to ask yourself, "Are you really willingly to change yourself before to let others change for you?"
Well, I hope every thing will be going fine for the next semester and have a cordial working relationship. And now, just enjoy the holiday first. Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentines and Happy Holiday~ ^^
Well, I hope every thing will be going fine for the next semester and have a cordial working relationship. And now, just enjoy the holiday first. Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentines and Happy Holiday~ ^^
2010/02/11
家
家，我想对很多人来说是最好不过的地方了。因为它带给我们安全感、舒适感、彼此的信赖与支持，甚至少不了无比的快乐。当然我从小就以为我也可以享有“家”的滋味，就算到了现在我还是渴望着...那是因为我从来都好像没有拥有过。我这么说不表示我的双亲已故或是我来自单亲家族，而事实是我的不快乐都是家所造成的！
所谓的“家”，不一定是富有，也可以是生活潦倒，只要是家里成员不管是喜伤悲乐，还是面临着什么困境的时候，大家都是互相胁持，帮忙，一起度过每一个难关，这就是我一直以来盼望的家了。但我的盼望最后却只有失望收场...
在大人们的眼里，金钱永远都排在感情的最前面。对他们而言没有金钱，感情就更加不用谈了。结果，不管是冷战还是世界大战，金钱都是大人们的导火线。不管是做人家的父母还是婆婆，结果还是一样。难道大人们的EQ就这么差吗？还是他们明知故犯呢？
每当金钱上出现了问题，大人们就只会互相指责，推卸责任，甚至还逃避问题。难道他们不能正视问题，找出原因，然后达成共识，再做出解决问题的方案吗？因为他们这样子，问题永远没有解决，反而还从以前持续到现在。
我曾经因为他们，中四的时候背着他们向老师申请停学，当然遭到老师大力的反对。毕业过后就到外头工作来赚取自己的生活费来帮助减轻负担，不过这一切也只是暂时性的拖延，毕竟问题依然还没真正解决。
面对着大人们的状况，我已经累了，尤其是夹在中间。或许是受到他们影响吧，只要有人吵架，不管是朋友之间也好，情侣也好，不认识的也好，我心里就会觉得很无奈，只能对着他们叹气...“难道你们认为吵架就能解决一切吗？难道你们不累不烦吗？你们不但只是在浪费时间而已，而且还破坏双方的感情，不是吗？”这是我一直以来想对他们吵架的人所说的一番话。
老实说，我只有在家以外的地方带着笑脸。一旦回到家里，从我懂事以来就再也没对他们笑过，也没对他们哭过了。因为我已经对这个家没有了表情，也没有了感情。说话，吵架，还是什么的，都没有了。因为大人们从来都只顾自己，从来没体谅小的感受。安慰我的都是伯父，伯母和姑姑。不过他们的好意我心领了。因为我对着大人们不再有失望，因为我不再盼望了。这就是我不想回家，也不想家的主要原因咯。
现在的我能够做的事就是要好好读书，还有又得到外头找工作来养活自己，不想再依靠大人们了。看来下学期的一切课外活动，可能都得取消了，就连毕业旅行业也必须郑重考虑一下。
“失去对彼此的信任、关怀、还有爱，就算家人健全，小孩却如孤儿...难道不可悲吗？所以大家还是最好珍惜身边的所有人吧。因为一旦失去，就再也没有机会了...”
所谓的“家”，不一定是富有，也可以是生活潦倒，只要是家里成员不管是喜伤悲乐，还是面临着什么困境的时候，大家都是互相胁持，帮忙，一起度过每一个难关，这就是我一直以来盼望的家了。但我的盼望最后却只有失望收场...
在大人们的眼里，金钱永远都排在感情的最前面。对他们而言没有金钱，感情就更加不用谈了。结果，不管是冷战还是世界大战，金钱都是大人们的导火线。不管是做人家的父母还是婆婆，结果还是一样。难道大人们的EQ就这么差吗？还是他们明知故犯呢？
每当金钱上出现了问题，大人们就只会互相指责，推卸责任，甚至还逃避问题。难道他们不能正视问题，找出原因，然后达成共识，再做出解决问题的方案吗？因为他们这样子，问题永远没有解决，反而还从以前持续到现在。
我曾经因为他们，中四的时候背着他们向老师申请停学，当然遭到老师大力的反对。毕业过后就到外头工作来赚取自己的生活费来帮助减轻负担，不过这一切也只是暂时性的拖延，毕竟问题依然还没真正解决。
面对着大人们的状况，我已经累了，尤其是夹在中间。或许是受到他们影响吧，只要有人吵架，不管是朋友之间也好，情侣也好，不认识的也好，我心里就会觉得很无奈，只能对着他们叹气...“难道你们认为吵架就能解决一切吗？难道你们不累不烦吗？你们不但只是在浪费时间而已，而且还破坏双方的感情，不是吗？”这是我一直以来想对他们吵架的人所说的一番话。
老实说，我只有在家以外的地方带着笑脸。一旦回到家里，从我懂事以来就再也没对他们笑过，也没对他们哭过了。因为我已经对这个家没有了表情，也没有了感情。说话，吵架，还是什么的，都没有了。因为大人们从来都只顾自己，从来没体谅小的感受。安慰我的都是伯父，伯母和姑姑。不过他们的好意我心领了。因为我对着大人们不再有失望，因为我不再盼望了。这就是我不想回家，也不想家的主要原因咯。
现在的我能够做的事就是要好好读书，还有又得到外头找工作来养活自己，不想再依靠大人们了。看来下学期的一切课外活动，可能都得取消了，就连毕业旅行业也必须郑重考虑一下。
“失去对彼此的信任、关怀、还有爱，就算家人健全，小孩却如孤儿...难道不可悲吗？所以大家还是最好珍惜身边的所有人吧。因为一旦失去，就再也没有机会了...”
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